Thursday, July 28, 2011

Dear God

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

Why is it that things cannot be simpler?
Why must everything be in such complication?
Why can't it be A or B?
Why can't it be just black or white?

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

Why are people so difficult to be with?
Why is it that it is not obvious we do not live forever and we just have this one life?
Why can't people just be honest and direct?
Why must there always be a game to play?

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

Why is it that I am always the one left out?
Why is it alright to take advantage of Jane?
Why is it that I am always the one hurt?
Why is it that I am always the one cheated?
Why is it that I am always just another one on the list?
Why is it that I am always misinterpreted?
Why am I the one hurting my loved ones?

Why, Oh Why, Dear God, why?

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

It hurts.
It hurts really bad.
It is broken, really bad this time.
I cannot take the pain no more.
It is too much to handle, to hurtful to handle.
I am really heartbroken, Oh God.

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

It's 2.45 am and I can't sleep.
My eyes hurt really bad, they can't close.
My head is spinning so fast, it hurts.
I might be getting a slight temperature.

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

I have never asked anything of you.
Not that I remember of in the past 4 years that we have not spoken.
Even if I did, I would have asked on behalf for another's well being.
But, this time, if you really exist, I need your help.
Just for this time, I need.......I need, your spiritual guidance.

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

I may not know everything, heck I may not need to know everything at this age,
But, sometimes I lose my way, and I need guidance on to the right path,
I need the spirit to guide me, Dear Lord,
I need comfort, I need warmth, I need guidance,
I cannot take another heart break,
I cannot manage another heart break.

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

When life strikes me,
I tumble, at times, just fall drastically,
Hurting every senses in me,
Breaking every one of my bones,
And it takes sometime for me to stand and climb right back up,
But when I do, and I look down, it actually was not quite far that I fell off.

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

I feel so much better now,
I feel a burden is lifted off my shoulder,
I feel this hurt in my chest is fading drastically,
I feel so much warmth.

Dear God,
If you're out there,
I really do hope you're listening.

You're a real good listener,
I'm sorry for losing contact with you, but I don't regret it,
It was just an experience I needed to have to appreciate it when it was gone,
I am almost insignificant here on earth,
If not significant, I hope, I really do hope, you at least realise that I exist,
I know I will never reach your good books, I don't expect to come anywhere near,
But, I just hope you do know that I exist and my feelings count,
If not for anyone, at least to you.

Amen.